homesickness

ya...i'm suffering from homesickness..really..i never expected this though..haha...didn't know i'm so not used to having nothing to do but stay in the hostel..haha.. i'm not ashamed to say this..tears actually flowing down my eyes as i type this..haha..lol...something must be wrong with me..can't stop it though...cannot control u know..haha..

guess this time i felt the worst kua...last week also felt similar to this..but have to tahan..haha..my god sis and my late bro's friend is there with me..they accompanied me for dinner that time...i guess they can sense that in me too..lol..

how do i feel..?haha..i feel so so sick of waiting in the hostel here for the classes..and even i'm back in the hostel...there's nothing to do but online..as in watch youtube videos and chat..that's why thesedays u can always see me online..no longer appear offline..haha...here i'm typing this blog with tears coming down my eyes...with my roommate beside doing his things..reading up the dictionary as his english not that good..hope he don't notice me crying..LOL

being here..i do really wish the 4 years end fast...or rather being out of here and be with my gf or family or friends...dunno this is just temporarily feeling or it will go on as long as i'm staying here... i hope it dun last long..

how do i know i'm suffering from homesickness..? while i was downstairs watching tv..i read a pamphlet..titled 'home away from home'..haha..there got write some symptoms of homesickness..haha..so..i read and then only knew i'm actually homesick..

haha....good thing my gf called me and conforted me a little..as i'm typing this part..i'm already under a controlled state..so...no more emotional feelings..LOL...guess u guys who are reading this is saying 'what man..tzong meng homesick?' or 'oh my god..he cries'..lol...i'm not ashamed to say this..

i miss my home..
i miss my family members..
i miss my friends..(yes..u are included, the freak 8 gang, the lineage gang)
i miss my gf..
i miss my room back home..
i miss my blanket..
i miss playing dota with friends while i'm here..
i dun wanna stay in here and just wait for class..
i wan to be with my close ones..not any stranger..
i miss secondary life...

thats' all for now..i must stop before i'm emotional again...haha..thanks for reading and see the tzong meng's weak spot